What I Learned This Year

As my freshman year of college comes to a close, I can't help but wonder about the things that changed me or that I have come to realize through the course of the year.  I realized that I don't like writing as much as I like analyzing.  What I really enjoy is picking stories and books apart and talking about themes and structure and how they're employed and why they're employed.  Also, I realized exactly how hard writing is.  I realized that I really am an introvert at heart.  Throughout high school, I always questioned that part about me, cause I was never sure if it was a phase or who I really was.  Also, I was never sure what being an introvert meant exactly.  Here, I realized that I naturally prefer spending time alone, as if being alone is something that I need to function properly.  I realized that I don't like chemistry and that there are a lot more jobs out there than I had previously thought.  I realized that forcing any friendship is highly pointless and that, a lot of times, people drift apart because of a lack of proximity.  I realized that the world is really a lot bigger than I had previously thought, and a lot less structured.  I realized that there are ways of doing exactly what you want and not being completely ready to do them is okay too.  College is great because, not only am I discovering a lot of things about myself and other people, but I'm also learning to accept the things the way they are.  For me, control has always been a hard thing to give up, but I think I'm starting to try.